Dark Times

No, not COVID-19… real dark times. I have dealt with so much in the last 5 years that it is hard to imagine it all.

I had a bad motorcycle accident and ended up in the hospital overnight. A month later my wife had a near heart attack. Out home burned down. We moved (obviously). Made a new friend, and lost them. My wife had to go to ICU for 4 days for a heart attack she had on the bus on the way to work. (Turned out it was a viral infection, but only found that out about 2 months ago… thick blood… COVID-19? It was in January of 2019.) Had the worst neighbors I have ever seen move into the appartment next door; in nine months they did over $12,000 in damages. COVID-19 and the lock-down.

I am so very glad that is all behind me.

With all of this, there is a new horizon. I am going to endeavor to begin adding content here on a weekly basis. I don’t know if this will lost, or have any value, but I am kind of looking forward to it if for no other reason than to start concentrating on writing again.

Dodadagohvi Romeo

Yesterday we said donadagohvi (until we meet again) to Romeo, our 14-year old cat. On Thursday he got down from a recliner and his bad right hip gave up. We thought it was something he could heal from, but he would never be able to walk again… the sad decision was made to send him on rather than let him linger in pain unable to do more than shift and drag himself in agony.
Miss him so much already.

He was all of 22 oz when we got him, and 21 pounds when he left. Always happy. Always loving. And full of joy.

See you when we get there. Love you Big Ol’ Boy.

YouTube Censoring Of The Subscriber Feeds

For some time now YouTube has been accused of controlling what a user gets to see. Some think it is a conspiracy, some think it is revenue control, still, others think it is an attempt to kill off “undesirable” channels. I don’t really care or know.

What I do know is this morning I look into my Subscribed Feed and found this:

Notice than only 10 are shown.

I didn’t find a vid I saw in the normal feed. So, I went back and look at the channel. It said I was subscribed, so I unsubscribed and resubscribed and then I had this:

I reduced the size of the browser view to fit all 44 vids.

I don’t know why Google is doing YouTube censoring of the Subscriber Feeds, but I feel it is stealing from users because I have paid for Premium and they are not letting me have why I give them money.

Stop being ass holes, YouTube!

Dream Catchers

Osiyo (Hello),

In the old days, a woman was troubled by a spider building her home in the house of this woman. She went to destroy the web and spider but was stopped by her friend who said, “Leaver her to work. She is also Grandfather’s child.” And so, the woman relented.

The spider, older than was known, went to the home of the friend and said, “You protected me. And I will give you and your children protection while you sleep. I will stop bad dreams from waking you, or bad spirits from troubling even as you have done for me.”

As the years passed the spider grew to love the children of the village and started protecting all of them. As she grew too old she gathered one woman from each of the seven clans and said, “I will show you how to weave my web so your children and grandchildren may always have my webs to guard their sleep.” These women taught all the people the web. And so, to this day, all the people of all the world may make her protecting web. The nature of mankind added the adornments and gifts that have come to be a Dream Catcher of today.

Danisdayohihv’I (“They were shooting.” From the tradition of shooting a gun on the holidays and New Years’.) – Happy Holidays, and may Peace and Prosperity be yours for all your days.

Well, Ain’t That Some Shit?

After about a decade of friendship, I am losing someone from my life. And, as the title of this says, ain’t that some shit?

It comes down to a simple problem: we game together, and out of the game we a fine as friends, but when gaming we are poison. The toxicity has gotten the better of me. Worse still, it is killing off a friend of a couple of years with it in all likelihood.

I am old enough to know this never had to get this way, but I have a fatal character flaw: I am too fucking nice. I put up with shit because I am strong enough to handle it. Then it gets worse. I have been warned about it in the past, “Letting people walk all over you isn’t healthy.” No shit?

But, I didn’t think of it as being walked on. It is a thin line between being strong and being used. I have always had an issue with that.

So, anyway, that is why I am posting now. As for why I have been silent, well, there was a lot of shit going on in my life and I either didn’t want to share it or didn’t think it was worth sharing.

I hope your life is going well, whoever you are.


Getting Back To Normal

After the house fire on the 28th of July (at which time my server was about to renew, but the situation required me to let it go for a bit), the site had to drop.

I am in a better place today than I was last week at this time. I am going to set this back up so I can update and keep a web presence.